Health Update: July 3, 2012
The
last few months have been rather tough for me, but at last, I am feeling more like
myself than I was then. I do not feel the urge to cry every second of the day,
nor hide out from life anymore. Oh, yeah, it still happens now and then, but
now I am fighting it. I am alive and want to live that life that was saved this
past year by surgeries and chemotherapy. Life is too short, as they say…. So let
me live it the way I want to and let me be happy doing it!
I
think I just needed some time to gather myself together and realize that I
survived another bout with cancer and get on with my life. I needed to allow
myself to be better, smile, laugh again, and go on with my life. It was not
easy, but somehow, I worked it out by just letting myself be sad and down for a
bit. I needed to see that it was all right for me to live again, to get back
into doing what I love to do again.
I am
not saying that it was not rough, yes… I definitely had some rough days when I
let my depression, and sadness ruin my day. I hid out in my little world and
ignored those around me. I did keep in touch, but not as I should… luckily,
they gave me the space that I needed and allowed me to do it “my way." I
thank them for that part!
I did
a lot of reading and writing, carried on with my school assignments and just
let myself feel sad if I needed to do so. I also took many naps, allowed myself
to be tired if I felt like it, exercised when I could, and even went shopping.
I did some catalog online shopping and got a few nice dresses, shirts and so
forth. Now, I just need to find somewhere to wear them! Any ideas?
Over
the past few weeks, I have even started wearing some (they used to call them
knee knocker's eons ago) Capri pants. I had been wearing them inside the
apartment, but when we took a bus trip to the Washington DC Zoo on Saturday, I
wore a pair of them … OMG in public and survived. Crazy, huh! We had a wonderful time…. Even though the
weather was hotter than HELL, we enjoyed it. It was long, tiring and
exhausting, but fun!
So,
for now… Still hangin’ in there, fighting to enjoy life!
Live, love, laugh, and learn!
Hugs and kisses, Connie
Happy July 4th Everyone!
Connie- Winner in
First Place
Cancer – Last Place
No comments:
Post a Comment